King's Gardens

In a quiet sylvan glade, amidst beauty, charm, and grace a new poetic force emerges to dance words wanton and chaste I caught him walking alone, On a path in my garden the gentle poet does not reflect me so I scream despair and rip out his throat With blood and tears dripping my hands clenched and gory If I can't write free and creative I must take infamous glory...

Monday, July 20, 2009

Repost from january 2005 from erotique series

Evening.
I looked into her eyes, holding her chin in my hand tilting her head slightly. Her gaze flickered back and forth as she tried to read something, but I kept my eyes steady, blank. She started to pull away so I shook my head slightly, just enough that she saw the movement and froze. Her hands fluttered uselessly for a second until she took a firm grip on the sides of her nightgown and twisted the fabric up holding her hands in place. I lowered my hand from her chin, running the edge of my thumb across the ridge of her lower lip in barely a whisper of touch as I pulled my hand away. Her pupils dilated slightly and she took a deep slow breath in. She was dressed in a cream silk gown that rode a few inches above her knees and draped over her shoulders on straps that were mere threads. It had no lace or pearls adornment, but needed none, it flowed over her hips and breasts smoothly; peaked slightly at her stiffening nipples. She swayed slightly as I examined her, drank her in with my eyes. Her hands twisted the fabric as she tried not to move and I furrowed my brow slightly, a mere narrowing of my eyes. It was enough to see however and she instantly let her hands go limp. I looked at the crumpled silk then up to her eyes, letting her see my disappointment. Her eyes widened minutely and glistened, slightly moist. I reached forward and smoothed my hand over the rumples aware that she held her breath as I touched her. Her skin was like fire under the cool silk, but I forced myself to stop once the worst of the wrinkles had disappeared. I lifted a finger to her lips which parted a little perhaps expectantly, but merely traced their outline gently, letting her know she was forgiven. I walked around behind her, she held motionless staring at where I had just been. From behind the sweep of her shoulders accentuated the full curve of her hips. I gently pulled her hair back to fall evenly down her center. I raked my fingernails across her scalp lightly, she shuddered lightly, but when she closed her eyes I stopped my hands instantly. Her eyes popped open and her head started in surprise, she had forgotten herself for a moment and been caught. I removed my hands from her and stepped back, letting my heels clunk loudly on the floor so she could hear my leaving. It seemed cruel to leave her then, seemed crueler to myself when I so wanted to touch her, make love to her. I stood 3 paces behind her watching her shoulders slump then, a slight shiver went through her body as she didn't hear my footsteps recede even farther. I watched every part of her I could; drinking in the vision of her. We stood like that for quite a few minutes before her head twitched slightly, she wanted to see if I was still there. She knew I might be behind her watching, but the low music from the stereo was drowning out my low breathing. I stepped close to her, not touching, gently so as to not make any noise I stepped closer and closer, holding my breath. I stood behind her like a shadow, not moving. I could feel the heat from her body through the space between us. She obviously could too as she leaned backwards against me. She brought her arms over her head and wrapped them around my head pulling me tight against her. I slid my own arms around her middle. "Was that all you could take?" I whispered. "Yes." her voice was thick with desire. "This time." I whispered even more gently and nipped her earlobe with my teeth. She shivered slightly and I bent down and took her legs sweeping her up into the cradle of my arms.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

bad drunken poem, though it does rhyme somewhat

Let me hear your voice ringing deep down in my core.
Something of your voice touches places ne'er seen before.
Let me feel the tickle of your laughter in my pants some more.

God I'm sucha pervert but I can't stop thinking of,
places that I would like to have lubricated latex glove
When we are together I see the heights of heaven above.

Never let it be said that I'm an unfulfilled whore
I like sex, I like porn, bet you couldn't tell before.
let me touch you in some place that makes you cry out more.

Then you'll see the real me all wrapped up in latex wow!
Like a giant dildo, ready to get up in your privates now!
I'll make you scream, make you shout this poem sucks, and how..

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

DMB

DMB, dmb, Dave Mathews Band,
You suck!!!
I wasn't your greatest fan, but after watching your At&t commercial, you can now file me in the "will probably not piss on you if I saw you on fire category, although I might try to fart on you(that would be cool!!)).
Seriously College versus college text messaging!?
Tokay, George.. Lets find out which college campus is not AT&T saturated enough so we can sculpt next years ad-campaign. DMB, you cop-outs, you sell-outs..
Honestly I think the worst part of this is, that as a band you still probably make more money than 80% of the population. Yet you feel financially deficient enough to make a deal and get in bed with the global conglomerate AT&T ..
I guess I-phone sales must have been down..
I know the reason I never got one was AT&T.
Now I can say the same for the question: How come you didn't but the Dave Mathews Band cd?

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

A year later.

It took a year to get this blog back online. So many things have changed, and lucky for any readers it's well documented on other blogs.. I'm fond of this one, so I will continue here.
How do you know if you're clinically depressed? Recently my own thoughts have been disturbing to me, and at least twice I can recall having vivid imaginings of seeking psychiatric help, what I would say ask of them, possible remedies to my condition... Anyway cries for help? From myself? Well I guess this blog makes three officially. I feel safer of course having this blog dormant for over a year. One birthday to another really. Hopefully anyone who knows me has stopped checking. If not, could this be cry for help # four? I am just so unhappy sometimes I stop and say to myself.."Where is this coming from?" I can't locate a physical cause, yet I get so pent up and angry for no reason.. Slam cupboard doors if my coffee cup is on the wrong shelf, even when I put it there. Then there's the outbursts of definitely unmanly emotion. During too happy movies, or, of course) sad movies, I get weepy, tear up and choke back my big womanly sobs.. Or at least that's what I feel like. Even TV serials can tug at these phantom heartstrings once in a while.. Ever cried at an episode of Angel? Or Scrubs? I have, and it's not pretty watching the fat bald guy cry.. This year I have broken a foot, and put on 25 pounds. I have sprained my back (very recently) thus the restart of the writing. Still going to work though. They don;t have much for me to do with the restrictions I have, but it's still better than letting me sit home and recuperate.. Anyway the self pity in this entry is starting to gag me. Cry for help number five.. Still counting and wondering.. Anyone know the signs of clinical depression? Can I self diagnose and treat said depression?

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Back from beyond

So I have recovered use of the internet.
I am now of the Blue collar working class having given up my desk for the pleasure of toil, sweat, and a new respect for myself as a man. I had doubts about being able to handle such intense manual labor, though myself a little too softened by the years I sat bound to a desk (not for pleasure unfortunately) My body has changed drastically in response to my new regime. I have lost close to 25 pounds, and also lost 4 waist sizes. Odd how large I must have been but never noticed. now I work regular 12 hour days 5 or even 6 times a week, and find little time to myslef where I'm not eating or sleeping.
I'm really enjoying my new life, I have more money than I've ever had, though I still waste it as readily as I did before. I'm feeling healthy, happy, and even if I don't have much time off right now I enjoy that time off more, as I no longer have to deny myself the small pleasures I did when I was working a lot less. I miss writing though, which is of course what prompted me to get back onto my blog which surprisingly after almost 6 months of inactivity is still here. I'm going back to finish my story now, because despite the happiness I feel now I know I am not going to be able to do this forever. I already have days where my back feels like I've been kicked, and I'm pretty sure that's only going to get worse with age.
Welcome back Goodkingalan, Welcome back dreams of creation and the fantasy that lurk behind my everyday life. i will trap you with my pen, and if failing then my keypad...

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Almost...

There's like a feeding frenzy here at work today- there's a birthday in the office and everone brought something for a little party, only thing is someone decided they would make sure they could have lunch  so they all brought a dish and a desert. I brought a dozen donuts shaped like pretzels (because they were cheap)

Anyway we have 13 people who are in this dept since they combined Operations, A.R, and A/p. We have enough food for about 35 people. There is a steady line of people with little bitty plates stacked in ginormous piles marching in and out of the breakroom- The very air smells like garlic chocolate chip cookies and barbeque. The smacking crunching slurping sounds of 10 bovine representative individuals is like a wet humming noise in the air.


I for one just don't feel hungry.. But I thought I would share.


I am anxiously awaiting a call today from my new job, what could be my new job anyway.  I did my final interview last night and teh guy said he would give the go ahead, but I should still act surprised when they offered it to me. It is now 12 noon and she has not called me yet.  I'm usually more patient than this but this time I will actually be doubling my salary. Double. Wow. Can't even imagine.

It's a totally different line of work with a guaranteed raise every year until 2007 and we renegotiate the contract.  Thanks to a very kind recomendation from my very excellent cousin I will be getting this job. If she calls.

I've had 4 interviews 3 tests 2 tours of the new workplace. I've met my future supervisor, a different supervisor, the Production manager, and the Hr director. I put in an application on Monday of last week and not counting the weekend so far today is the first day I have not heard from or talked to someone at the company.  It is only noon of course, but I'm impatient.


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There's like a feeding frenzy here at work today- there's a birthday in the office and everone brought something for a little party, only thing is someone decided they would make sure they could have lunch  so they all brought a dish and a desert. I brought a dozen donuts shaped like pretzels (because they were cheap)

Anyway we have 13 people who are in this dept since they combined Operations, A.R, and A/p. We have enough food for about 35 people. There is a steady line of people with little bitty plates stacked in ginormous piles marching in and out of the breakroom- The very air smells like garlic chocolate chip cookies and barbeque. The smacking crunching slurping sounds of 10 bovine representative individuals is like a wet humming noise in the air.


I for one just don't feel hungry.. But I thought I would share.


I am anxiously awaiting a call today from my new job, what could be my new job anyway.  I did my final interview last night and teh guy said he would give the go ahead, but I should still act surprised when they offered it to me. It is now 12 noon and she has not called me yet.  I'm usually more patient than this but this time I will actually be doubling my salary. Double. Wow. Can't even imagine.

It's a totally different line of work with a guaranteed raise every year until 2007 and we renegotiate the contract.  Thanks to a very kind recomendation from my very excellent cousin I will be getting this job. If she calls.

I've had 4 interviews 3 tests 2 tours of the new workplace. I've met my future supervisor, a different supervisor, the Production manager, and the Hr director. I put in an application on Monday of last week and not counting the weekend so far today is the first day I have not heard from or talked to someone at the company.  It is only noon of course, but I'm impatient.


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Thursday, March 31, 2005

sigh

I think my landlord is planning on making us move out. I guess one of the downfalls of renting from a guy instead of a company.  A company would let us live there as long as we wanted, provided of course we paid our rent and didn't disturb anyone.  My landlord on the other hand I think is under some pressure to give our apartment to his grand-daughter, a recent high school grad and slightly snotty little bitch.  She's been unhappy we moved in there from the beginning. More than that I just feel paranoid and having him lurking around is making me uneasy. Everything lately has been skirting the edges of the maelstrom and I'm just waiting for that one stray breeze or odd wave to push us over the edge.  I need FW to start working again, and she knows it. She feels terrible she's been out so long, I
don't really want her to go back to work, but we need the money now more than we need our health I guess. I'm going to try to get a night job, difficult with the long hours I work, at least on those 4 days I work my regular job. My littlest sister is getting married in a month and a half. It was set for fall but has been pushed forward due to pregnancy, probably the number one reason for proposal in my entire family. My older brother is the only sibling to marry without someone being pregnant.  The quick wedding is a little difficult for me right now, basically having no money or prospects for getting any is going to mean another bus trip to NJ, sleeping on someone's floor, bumming rides around town. This time is difficult my best buddy in NJ is leaving for Boot camp the day before the wedding, so I don't really have anywhere to stay. My brother whose sharing a house with my
mother would be my other choice (back when he had his own apt) but I haven't spent the night in my mothers house since she tossed me out as a teenager. We get along great, now. But even if FW doesn't understand I just feel weird asking to stay there. Oh well just feeling the weight of my world these past couple days. I need to stay busy, depression lurks around every corner, and I feel the grayness crowding in. More coffee is called for, then less time sitting up at night contemplating my life.


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