Glade of the King

I have too many stories going outside the computer. I really need someone to type for me. I continue to be devoted to scribbling with pen and ink. I force myself to translate my script to digital text, but I continue to find excuses to keep writing new ideas instead.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Desperation

In the darkest depths of desperation cavern
men with purpose shine like beacons
though they reek of blood and bowel

These desperate men may be found near bottom
though the fight within may see the top
of whatever challenge piles upon them

Driven and most desperately hoping to feel
they rise and rise again looking for
success to rise from such fallow field.

Sunday, July 04, 2010

Mental Illness

Does the fact that I hate everyone around me make me crazy? At what point can you decide that the people around you deserve to be hated?  Is that mental Illness? They continuously do rude uncharitable inconsiderate things and I get more and more tired of them.. Wanting them to be as grown up as I have to be when they are older than me? Does that make me crazy for despising and loathing them?

At what point do my feelings become normal instead of every instant of my growing anger being more and more wrong with me?

Does anyone here care about what my feelings are around here?  When SHE says of her daughter: She is slow and easily distracted and plans too much and whatever you can't be mad at her for that... Is that true? I always thought if someone is late to meet you, late for supper late for pick-up late in general it shows a lack of respect for the person you're showing up late to.  When you have a job interview you make sure you're not late because you know it will cost you the job.  How is that different when someone gives you a dinner time and you show up late? Sure it doesn't cost you a job but does it show any respect for the one who sweats and labors over making a tasty dinner?

I am under the assumption that everyone who lives with me thinks I have a mental illness,  Does that make them right?  Can't we assume until proven otherwise that her children take advantage of me? They eat the food I make without thanks, they show up late for dinners they have asked me to cook!

I hate this, all of this and all the little things that travel along with this.
I don't think I'm crazy I'm just unhappy.
They're rude but I need to be on Prozak?